Spiritual Stylism (English Version)

For me the deepest spiritual practice is not meditating, or shifting into a new identity. It is learning to not leave myself, when life asks me to stay. Our Ego can and will use everything for it´s own proof of existence and even a sacred practice like meditation can be used as something to DO, to achieve etc. Becoming more aware of what we truly are is not possible in doing more. It is the opposite and I am talking about the inside, not the outside. It is about stopping the movements that catapult us out of the inner closeness, the presence, the NOW. Our natural state has nothing to do with doing, thinking, or to confuse ourselves with emotions and bodily sensations, it is pure being and this feels like having the home within. It is full of warmth, love, joy, peace in ourselves and it takes courage to allow it, as at the same time everything that is still unresolved and trapped in us will come up and you will feel it as well. I will share my tangible experience, on how is feels somatically to not leave yourself and how to practice closeness during your daily life. 

Powerlessness is a state, never the truth...can you feel the freedom in that words? As children we experienced the state of powerlessness in various situations, with our care givers, in school, with other kids etc. It is a state in our nervous system, where we feel so numb and disconnected and it seems we cannot even move the body anymore. This was a very intelligent solution in the past, to protect us in situations, where we couldn't fight or run away anymore. Now, as an adult these unfinished cycles in the system get activated in situations that reminds the body of these moments from the past, and if we are not consciously aware and awake that this is just an activation, we truly believe we are powerless again. If we are brutally honest, we always have a choice to change things, sometimes not immediately, but step by step. So every time you say to yourself, I cannot, I must, I have no choice etc., you are telling your system, we are still powerless, repeating the old narrative and this is of course not serving the truth of you being a powerful creator. 

In the last episode I invited you to discover "The Truth Behind The Untruth". How blocked we are in certain areas of our life because of a limiting belief that works like a filter above the truth, which in most cases is not even your own. In this episode, I will dive deeper into how we receive the truth from our higher being somatically, not through thinking, the truth that is already existing as a code in your cells. I share with you how you can practically integrate the trapped energy behind the false point of view you have picked up unconsciously and embody the truth of your essence. 

What if everything you've come to believe about yourself, was never truly your own, but layers of adopted concepts, point of views, projections, your own interpretations based on events, observations and the meaning that you have given them, based on your own filter. In this episode we dive under the surface of limiting beliefs that have become your "truth" and identity. This episode is not a guide to positive thinking, it is an invitation to be still, to let the body speak and to remind you of the truth that was never lost, just hidden behind endless false beliefs. In the next episode we'll take a step further and discover how the nervous system begins to release old patterns, and how you can embody your original truth as a lived experience. 

I invite you not to see this question as simply a beautiful title, but as a portal to your true nature. I kept returning to this question, again and again. And as I sat with it, something began to fall away, more and more, right here in this very moment. Sensing the truth, of what we are does not require effort. We are not trying to go somewhere, we do not need to do more, read more spiritual books, going on more retreats, "consuming" more knowledge. It is already here, closer than anything else, NOW. If you resonate with this, I invite you to try it out, work with this question like with a mantra and allow it to carry you back to yourself, back to your essence. Be patient with yourself and play with it over and over while tuning into your body. You will experience the stories we are telling ourselves over and over, how we harm ourselves with our narratives and create negative emotions because of our thoughts,  how the mind always carries us away from the NOW and how we are trapped in an interpretation of reality, rather than really perceiving the present moment. Our Ego never sees the reality as it is, always through the filter of its own programming. You can stop it NOW, not tomorrow, not after doing more inner work, NOW... Mental understanding will never change anything, you need to experience it with your body, practice it, this is the real spiritual work. Enjoy and have fun :-)....

If we unconsciously go through our lives, then we are prisoners of our perception. I heard this saying the other day and it's so true. Surely you also know this great statement by Henry Ford "Whether you think you can do it or you can't, you're right". Our nervous system and our perception continuously filter which aspects of "reality" become visible to us and which remain seemingly hidden. We have an inner "scanner" that searches for the things that are important to your system and as you can imagine, this rarely comes from your conscious choice, but from your unconscious programs. Why do some people everywhere find evidence of lack, cheating, struggle, overwork, while others experience beauty, infinite possibilities, support, etc.? You can consciously choose what you focus on and your system will look for exactly these things in life :-)))). And that's great fun....

As soon as I hear "Feminine Glow", it creates a deep vibration in me. I imagine radiant skin, shiny hair, deep embodiment, her expression comes from her body, she speaks from the heart, deep breathing, love and compassion and at the same time fire and strength. When a woman shines out of her essence and at the same time embodies a dignity that you can't take your eyes off her, that's a real "Feminine Glow" for me. You see, it's not about the outside, it comes from the inside. And at the same time it is even more fun to reach into the treasure chest outside and play with make-up, hair, dresses, jewellery... as a further expression, not as a baseline and to perform. Immerse yourself with me in the true beauty of a woman, a being... that carries within it a source that never stops flowing when we live in harmony with our nature.

In last week´s episode we explored social fawning and how adaptation can slowly become self-abandonment. This week we are going one layer deeper. What if some of our so called kindness, empathy and understanding aren't coming from freedom, but from a nervous system trying to be safe. This is often so deeply rooted and part of our identity, but the hidden energy is anxiety, not love, wich will create more of this in ourselves and in the person in front of us. You will be surprised how much energy, freedom and aliveness returns when we no longer organize our lives around protection. This will influence all areas in your life. If you shift within one field, you will shift everywhere. 

How truthful do you show yourself in your relationships? Can you feel at ease, relaxed and completely free? Do you stand by who you are? With all the rough edges? With views, ways of life, visions that are challenging for others, maybe even outrageous :-), but deeply coherent for you? Or do you still adapt to your environment in a way where you are not really sincere, but harmony and security are more important than truthfulness? We are social beings and our nervous systems vibrating with each other and if we are not safe and grounded in ourselves, we easily loosing ourselves in a social activation. Then our biology takes over with our deeper unconscious perception of the world and what is the underlying narrative about connection and we are no longer embodying who we are.  This often happens so subtly and on autopilot that we don't even recognize it. We think, this is part of our social identity, but it rarely nutures and fulfills us deeply. Sometimes the environment no longer fits the version we have become and sometimes we also lose ourselves to remain seemingly safe in which we do not really show ourselves. If your relationship with yourself is already intimate and close, then your body will show you very precisely when you leave yourself, it will no longer tolerate it, which used to be quite "normal". Being connected to yourself in stillness is the first step and then being able to stay grounded in yourself in a relationship opens a next growth field.

Which inner question do you follow at the moment? We live permanently, and mostly unconsciously, in inner questions and if these are unconscious, then they do not come from our higher being, but from our conditioning. How do I stay safe? How do I prevent pain? How do I connect? How do I prevent shortage? How do I prevent loss? These are just a few examples and you can immediately see what energy they come from, wich is pure lack. Our questions are already the orientation to a certain field and this is already a creative process. Questions are not neutral, they are frequency, focus, perceptual filters and if they are unconscious they drive us in a way, where we recreate over and over the same lack in our life.  The new orientation therefore requires awareness and your dedication and willingness to follow the impulses of life to this new and chosen question and thus to set a new orientation point on which you focus. Then a new reality unfolds step by step, one that you have consciously chosen is more aligned with what you would like to experience.